How to breakthrough? I asked myself repeatedly, day by day, night by night. Walking, before closing my eyes to sleep, commuting to workplace. Then, my mind went blank with zero answer.
To be honest, I'm in the phase - no longer interested with my current work. Repeating the same tasks from Monday to Friday makes me drained. Its consuming my energy and I become weak every time I reached home. No longer fascinating me anymore. I work solely for ends meet. But the company paid with decent payment that I could not resist. Staying longer than I planned before.
I think the God gives me "honeymoon space" so that I could figure it out what is the best for me and my life. Maybe taking a new course, or upgrading my skill for future benefits. The more I studies about me I saw that I am the person who waits for the opportunity rather than seeking the opportunity.
My heart keeps yelling from the inside. Feeling miserable recently due to repeating mistakes and sins I made leads to question, "How to reborn again?". Being a cat? Licking fur and sun bathing with no worries lingering.
Being a human, you have need to know what you want and people cannot decide your life path. It is totally your life, your drama, your book. You cannot depending onto someone else in creating your story. You have to make it your own. Plus, you need to be a survivor keep on fighting. You deserve this world. - Bangkit. <3
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